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078: The Rediscovery Sphere

When I was in short pant school, I came up with the phrase "sphere of personal influence" which was funny the first time I said it and after that it became just another example of how much a geek I really was. I couldn't just say, "Hey, you're standing too close to me." It had to be: "Ah, you're inside my sphere of personal influence." As you can imagine, there is very little which communicates more effectively to the team on the other side of the volleyball net that you are a kid who will be afraid of the ball when it comes hurtling across the net at your noggin.

There are invisible spheres which we carry with us -- headspaces, if you will. We climb inside of these spheres and they protect us, they ward us against the external forces coming to bear. Our very own occult circles, imagined by our paranoia and made real by our inadequacies and fears. But not all of the circles which Solomon built were intended as protective, some granted assistance or aided you in your searches. The Rediscovery Sphere is that bubble in which you store your other self.

I have a day job -- that eight hour existence which keeps the roof over my head and allows me the luxuries which I enjoy -- and my writing time is slices that I steal during the other hours when I'm not sleeping. And, as such, my existence is somewhat schizophrenic: all that I become during the writing process must be quickly swept aside when other priorities take effect. I have to be able to sweep everything into the Rediscovery Sphere where it will hang in space until I can get to it once again.

I call this the "Rediscovery" sphere because when I come back to it -- if I've been away for awhile -- I have to rediscover the self which I have deposited here. I have to reassemble the pieces which I've so hurried tossed aside previously. Things have a tendency to change if you leave them in the sphere too long. It's almost as if moss grows. I need an effective moss-killer or, at least, a way to come and go in this sphere without leaving dead things which fester.

Posted by Teppo at March 18, 2004 08:09 AM

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